Not anything at the worst

It,a not a happy diary,so please don,t look at it if you come here for something relax.

I just want to put someting down, to walk on my way  lively,so I write here.

  I  don,t  matter to open my heart  to every one.  it,s  so boring at this time  for a good  job. what is a good  jobat this time? how to choose ,  the  development  maybe.  at the same time of your making a decision ,you lose someting.which is more heavy? what i really want? the development , a good feeling of being at some place or somebody .  it,s difficult to say. I  kown Iam so fear for the unexpectable living in a strange city,waiting for a man who will not come. I am tired  at this moment. 

I  kown I shall feel better  after a rest for a moment. 

NOT anything at the worst !

The sun will stil  be  rising in the east in tomorow morning!